Happy Birthday Nadeen

Happy Birthday to Nadeen from all of us in Dublin. 

How we wish we could come to your birthday party today. 

We hope you had a good one and can't wait to see you soon. Muaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

Missing you -Ameera, Husayn and Hisham

On other hand, yesterday on the way to pick up Ameera from the bus stop, I told Husayn about his best(est) friend birthday's today and that she was having a party. Straightaway, he said...

Husayn: Can we go to Malaysia Mummy and go to Nadeen's party? Please, please, please  Mummy, it's Saturday and there's no school. Can we go please? Pretty please?

Mummy: Sorry Husayn but not this time, it's too far. Maybe next year, OK?

Husayn: Awww.... why can't we go? I want to give her a present. Can we get something special Mummy? Games for girls because she will like it so much. And maybe if I go back to Malaysia she can play it with me. OK Mummy. Can we? 

And the questions just kept on coming, non-stop, for much of the day.

How I wish I had the USB cable for my phone so that I can upload the video of his excitement about Nadeen's birthday. Ah well, I know deep inside he misses her still even if he seldom talks about her these days.  He keeps saying that Nadeen is always his best friend and the only 'Girl' friend he has as even in school, he only befriends the boys.

I'm your friend

Since Husayn started playschool, he constantly talks about his friends. Well only his BOY friends actually...

This is a video of him after I asked him again what he'd been telling me before. So, it's really not the full version but it does have the part that I think is kind of funny. After he convinced me about the whole thing, his so-called one and only Girl friend concept, with a guilty-look on his face he said...

Don't worry Mummy, Nadeen is only my girl friend but I LOVE YOU still, Mummy.

I was in the car listening to the radio but at the same time listening to him but maybe not a 100% so, to get my full attention he purposedly said that . And it worked.  He is just one funny little fella. Full of surprises but don't be duped by his charming personality and all-round cuteness, he does have his own horrirfic moments. Hmmm... I suppose, you won't believe me until you see it for yourself...

I'll prove it to you if I can catch one of his moments on video one day. Of course, I'm not denying that my kids are such good kids but at the same time, they're no angels either. Ahaks! They certainly can make my blood go upstairs jugak woooooo!!!

The kid in the video is not actually Husayn but it should give you a good idea. The Mummy in the video is my hero...

I have to stop

If I had my way, I won't actually stop writing about Husayn from the day after his best friend left. But I have too. I don't want to think about it so much, but I just can't help it.


As usual, early in the morning when I was preparing breakfast for Ameera and hubby, Husayn will ask some for himself too - bread with chocolate spread, cut into four small squares or triangles and placed in a plastic bag. This time, the minute I handed over his breakfast pack to him, he said

Mummy, can I go to Nadeen's house after this?

I just ignored him but he didn't stop asking the same question. So, I reminded him that Nadeen wasn't at home anymore. She's now in Malaysia. The conversation went on and he started to cry, asking when she would be back, who lived in her house now, etc. etc.


The whole day, everytime he did something, ate something or saw something that could be related to Nadeen (no matter how remote), he would relate it and talk about her. At one point, it just broke my heart when he asked me,

Mummy, is Nadeen coming back tomorrow so I can go to her house and play with her?

I tried to explain again and not surprisingly, he started to cry again. This time, he asked who was going to play with him since Nadeen was no longer around any longer. It's just so hard for me. I can't exactly explain how I feel right now but whatever it is, it really, really, makes me sad. For Husayn, he still thinks that some time soon, Nadeen will come back and be re-united with him.

I know it will be the same for the next few days, but I promise to post no more sad stories. Somehow, during a break from this whole episode, I just smiled to myself. What will it be like in 10 years time or more, when both of them are a bit more grown up and after a while of not meeting each other (because I know with this current financial situation, I don't see us going home even for holidays)?

Will Husayn still miss his little best friend? He might feel embarrased reading this, but I think it will be the sweetest moment he will have in his childhood.

Good Bye

Just dropped off my dearest neighbour at the Airport. Somehow, I felt SO sad. Another good friend who I consider as family has gone home for good to Malaysia. My kids were so attached to them as I often dropped them off to be taken care by Kakak Ija. The kids played with Nadeen who is the my friend's daughter, ever since Husayn was small and untill Hisham's nearly a year old now.

I don't know what to say, seeing my kids sad, make me sad too. I know they will miss Nadeen and Ija a lot as they meet each other almost every day. I just don't like this moment. It breaks my kids' hearts and mine too. Looking at Husayn's face make me even sadder. He might have acted all cool and composed - not crying or even showing his sad face.

But I know, very soon he will ask me to bring him to his best friend's house to play and I just don't know what to say. I don't want to think about it. The saddest point today, was on getting home after sending them to the airport. Husayn walked straight to the kitchen looking very sadly at the toys they were playing together for most probably the last time yesterday and he said in soft and sad voice...

Mummy, Nadeen's not coming back......

I was like..................................................................

We've had enough of this. Maybe it's about time for us to plan for our going home sooner rather than later. Maybe. But I just don't know when.

To Sarahah, thank you for the friendship, thank you for all the help you gave, thank you for the time we spent together and last but not least, thank you for all the nicest things you've done for me.

To Ija, you are like a sister to me. Thank you for everything. Tak dapek Kak Nana nak balas jasa Ja..huhuhu.... Tak sempat jugak nak celebrate besday Ja ngan Hisham sama-sama..heheh sapa suruh balik awal??


To the whole family, I'm sure Malaysia you'll get the warm welcomes you deserve back home. Thank you for everything and you guys will definitely be missed so much. InsyaAllah, we shall meet again soon.